Where Oh Where…..???
June 11, 2015
I’ve been–where have I been? I’ve been hitting mics, going to class, work. Went away for a couple of weeks. Mic #66 last night at Grisly Pear (what a name, right?) last night. Writing material every day, accepting the process, accepting that I’m a beginner, accepting that I’m right where I’m supposed to be…accepting…accepting…accepting.
And I’ve been meditating, which is helpful.
In the beginning I did mostly Blue stuff, then came the family dysfunctional dark stuff, and now what’s emerging….observations, feelings, expressions….Not sure what’s happening with all the new stuff all the time….perhaps the work is evolving, or maybe I’m just getting bored of doing the same thing again and again.
Recording everything – audio, no video. Video feels a little tooo…..I know that’s where I’ll get the most growth, but it feels way too ugh to watch myself, but I once felt that way about recording the audio from my mics.
Memoir is on the shelf for now. It’s so much easier to write when I’m in an official class, and for now, for the summer that seems like it will have to wait–or maybe not…maybe I’ll signup for another round in July. This could be good.
Did a reading for a friend’s screenplay last week and that was fun but where am I in terms of movement toward my goal? What is my goal? To do standup, right? Ok, so going to an average of four mics a week and that’s the best I can do right now, going to one or two shows a week to watch working comedians, working in healthcare, and trying not to get too burnt out. Oh, and sailing! Last weekend went out with a reefed main sail — 35 mph gusts–CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So, I just wanted to check in since I’d posted anything in such a long time. My self esteem is a little in the toilet–even though–I listened to a recording from the other night and there were laughs all the way through. Maybe I’ll signup for a second mic on Friday night. Maybe that would be good. More stage time more stage time morestagetime!!!!!!